SURPRISE!

When I was in college I was told by my doctor on more than one occasion that having children would be a difficult thing for me. When I was in for my before marriage appointment she reminded me of this, even adding that it may be impossible. I have had many an ovarian cyst and the damage caused from these is the reason for my horrible prognosis.

Ironically however, just months into my marriage KC and I found out we were expecting and we welcomed out son into our family weeks after our first anniversary! We had always wanted our children to be around 2 years apart so when we were nearing that time we got off birth control... very shortly after, we prepared to welcome our daughter Kambree to our family.

About 2 months ago, I had been worried that my anemia was getting to the point where I would need to up my iron pills. I was also needing to be checked for a few other things, so I called my dr. She said in order to prescribe certain meds we would need to make sure I was not pregnant. I could take a test at home or take one there. Since everything costs more at the dr I opted for one at home.

I decided to take the test late one night. I took the test, glanced at it, threw it in the garbage and washed my hands. As I was turning the knob to leave the bathroom I had a sudden realization that perhaps that test said something different than I first thought. I dug it out of the garbage and was shocked. I found the box to compare (even though this was the only kind of test I had ever taken and I knew what it meant) and was completely floored!

(This next part may seem very ungrateful and selfish, but I use this blog to remember my adventures so I am going to record what happened just as it happened!)

I then openned the door, left the bathroom and completely burst into tears. KC who was home doing homework on the couch looked at me horrified and asked what was wrong. I walked to the couch, handed him the test, and layed on his lap sobbing! After I calmed down and explained I don't know how (I was breast feeding and on the mini pill for birth control) we talked about it. KC having the personality he has just sort of deals with things as they come. I however, went through a couple hours of I don't think I can do this (I don't think you have a choice was KC's reply).

Now, let me explain why I had the reaction I did:

*Kambree is a mere 7 months old. We figured best case senario our kids would be 14 months apart, worst case- a year!

*Another HOT summer FAT!!

*My pregnancys are not pleasant... my labors... WORSE. And Kambree's took the cake! I really did not feel recovered from anything that I went through during that time!

*Kambree broke my pelvis... like literally broke it. I don't think it's healed completely and am so scared to have that pain all over again!

*I had just booked a cruise for KC and me to celebrate his graduation. I knew they would not allow people past a certain week in their pregnancy go. What is we just lost that money!?

*I am going to have 3 kids under the age of 3! Am I patient enough for that? Am I organized enough for that? Will I EVER leave my house!?!

*Speaking of houses... I live in a tiny 2 bedroom apartment!

*We now will have to purchase a new vehicle... one that can fit 3 carseats! Keep in mind we both work very minimum paying jobs, while KC is just getting ready to begin grad school!!

There are a million other things that just plain scare me to death! We are both now excited. I wish that I could say that all my fears have been put to rest, but that is not the case. We are overwhelmed. However, we realize we are so blessed to have a new baby who will come to our lives. We are excited and looking forward to meeting this sweet little thing!

We had an ultrasound and found out we are due on September 23rd... which makes me right around 15 weeks right now! What adds to that excitement is just days after we made this discovery my sister announced she will be having a baby on September 6th! They are going to be best friends!!! (This also means we will be able to go on our cruise... YIPEE!!)

So, basically the jest of this whole super long blog is that we are expecting and we are surprised and thrilled!!!

(Oh yeah, the doctor also explained to me that sometimes the mini pill just does not work as well as it should with some peoples hormones and that this next go around I should try something more like an IUD after I have my child!)

SURPRISE!!!!!